Ruthless

Have you known how sad inside I was,
How restless with fatigue,
You'd know it's hopeless to try and make me smile.
Your puppy eyes and stainless voice,
Your humiliating trials to turn me cheerful,
Are like poisonous ivy to my tenderness.
I despise the very thought of you,
How you sneak inside my head, take shelter.
I hate the contrast between your lively personality,
And my dead soul.
Can you break me? Smash me in?
Can you make me bleed and ache and cry?
You can burn me with your passion, crush with your affection.
You can suffocate me, drown me in your lust.
Like a spider you crawl on my web of dreams,
Releasing all those of you, making me toss and turn.
I would scar you with my envy, my possessiveness,
But I know you don't belong to me.